I don't feel light

ive been dropping so much lately
it's working
103.8
but i dont feel lighter
the feeling isnt what i expected it to be
ive passed out twice

NO one has noticed
WHY?!?!?!
im losing the weight
im getting there
but im still so fat to people
im disgusting
i hate my body
i hate myself

YES!!! 104.4!!!!!

IM SO HAPPY!!!
ive finally broken it!!!!
knowing my luck though thats gonna turn around quickly :(
i fainted last night though
i think my dad is catching on
my mom doesnt give a shit as usual
and i like it that way

i think ill post a picture of myself later
actually i will if i lose more weight
lets hope i do
but im still ridiculously fatfatfatfatfatfatfat so hopefully you guys wont laugh

106.9

i ate so much
it culdve been so much worse i get
fuck weight
my boobs are getting smaller
i love it
now my stomach needs to do the smae thing

Confused

I binged today
I admit it
I wish I had the courage to put my finger down my throat and make my stomach throw it all up
I want it to rid it of it's impurities, cant it see?
stupid food.
i don't even want to know what my weight will be tomorrow
ill be slashing a blade across my arm because of it
and itll feel so bad
but so good at the same time

I'm Fading

i'm sick of it
i want to be skinny
i just need it
i need someone to listen
i'm getting sick
but i don't care
not until my hip bones poke out
not until my legs don't touch
not until my collar bone scares everyone away
then i'll be okay
maybe