Tuesday, May 17, 2011

im sneaking this in
my parents are homeschooling me now
no internet
no technology
im visiting my old school and posting this really fast
theyre watching my ever move
ive gained so much weight
im not hungry
and i hate it so much
im so fat
why even bother
theres no point anymore

Saturday, April 30, 2011


i ran away from my moms house
i don't think she cares
she was starting to hit me and throw things at me
she thinks i did something
im with my friend now
my bulimic friend
thank god!!!

shes helping me out
theres little to no food in her apartment
im enjoying the good life
im hungry as hell
but the road to thin is worth it

heres to skinny:

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

im sneaking this post in

hi everyone
i havent posted in a few days
mainly because someone fucking called the government and told them my parents neglect me
i guess they do love wise
but NOT food wise
theres plenty of food here
cps was trying to interview me and i rejected
that solves that problem
but something else has happened

my dad knows theres plenty of food
i was eavesdropping
and they were told the gov came over because im not being provided with food
and my mom noticed i wasnt eating
she weighed me at my lowest (98.4)
so now they know
and theyre making me eat
they wont let me go to the bathroom alone

im gonna try throwing up into an empty jar next time
i cant stand having this food in me
sorry if i dont post as regularly

love jana

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I've been slacking..

Im still at 100.1, but Ive been eating lately
 Im afraid that im going to go up
i really REALLY dont want that
i promised a picture earlier and im only posting it so i gain some motivation back

Monday, April 18, 2011


i havent eaten in days
9 days to be exact
my mom hasnt been home in dayss... i dont know where she is
my dad is a truck driver so hes gone for awhile
i hope i can keep it off when they get back
next up: 95

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

so close to 100...

im at 102.9 but i dont feel it
i might end up changing my ultimate gw
whatever it takes
i feel like nothing is happening
on the contrary im getting fatter
more weight on my stomach than EVER
its leaving my face
the place i didnt really mind much
and im uglier than ever
fucking body

Saturday, April 9, 2011

of course i gained it back

i'm ugly
i'm horrendous
i'm fat.
why can't i just fucking control myself?